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my ultimate double choc cookies

June 14, 2012

It’s undeniable, the sudden cascade of chocolate themed recipes that have been appearing on this blog of late (and even moreso when I tell you that there are not one but two (ok, three) more such recipes to be posted in the near future).

Well, “sudden” if you consider that I’m not generally a chocolate eater.

And “cascade” if you consider that the last non-guest chocolate-centric post was in January (and that the one before that was in March 2011).

Under normal circumstances, I would say that it had something to do with the incessant rain that seems to be plaguing these here parts. That perhaps the chill of the cold tiles beneath my bare feet has sent me kitchen-wards to bake the most comforting things known to humankind. That I had a stash of chocolate in the deep dark recesses of my pantry that needed exorcising.

But it wouldn’t be true.

(For starters, Saturday was beautiful, cold weather has me baking fruit crumbles instead of chocolate and I have no secret stash of chocolate – rather, I run out of it quite frequently these days).

Rather than being untruthful (though it may seem the cleverer option), I might choose to let slide, in my own inimitable way, that the sudden chocolate cravings could be made to correlate with the popping of a giant bubble.

To, perhaps, correlate with the sudden (vastly belated) realisation that a couple of months ago, before the Big Holiday, I made a couple of decisions that would throw life-as-I-once-knew-it out the window in favour of the unknown and exciting.

And that the unknown and exciting is now my new reality.

And that the Type-A, overachieving, painfully risk-averse, 5-year-plan-aholic in me is absolutely and undeniably freaking out, making me argue with my nearest and dearest over the most miniscule of misunderstandings, and causing me to retreat into alternating states of bliss at the freedom of it all and panic (ironically, at the freedom of it all).

People, up until two months ago, I was a lawyer at a big ol’ city law firm. I had been for years. From what I’d been told, I was good at my job. Smart, switched on, likely to go far and do so quickly.

I quit my job and went on a Big Holiday.

I came back and decided not to renew my practising certificate.

In just over two weeks’ time, I’ll no longer be able to head back into the profession that has occupied my brain (and, to some degree, my identity) for the better part of the last decade.

I’m working elsewhere now, in an environment so far removed from my past life that it seems almost unreal. The hours are better and the gratification that I feel at the end of each working day more than makes up for the temporary decrease in my available spending money.

And yet there are nights when I’m unable to sleep due to the overwhelming feeling of panic at having been foolhardy (or is it brave?) enough to leave a job that weighed me down even in my free hours for one that is far less expected of the person that I was for so long.

And on such nights I sit in front of my open pantry and write down long lists of ingredients.

Brown sugar and buckwheat and chocolate.

Salt and pepper and nutmeg.

Chocolate chips and nuts. Maybe not the nuts.

I baked these cookies one weekday afternoon as a gift for a girl I hadn’t seen in a while and as a treat for Mr Sheppardoo on his temporary return to Sydney.

I sampled one, curious and intoxicated by the smell, not 15 minutes after it had been pulled from the oven.

For the first time in a long time, I let out an involuntary giggle at the tastiness of it all. And then I made another batch. And another.

I’m not saying these cookies will be the best you’ve ever had in your life. Or that they’ll replace your great-aunt Martha’s family recipe that you turn to whenever a crisis strikes.

I will say that they’re the best cookies I’ve ever made. That they brought me a burst of unbridled, silly, youthful glee with each sweet and savoury and nutty and warming bite. That they take less than 45 minutes from pantry to mouth.

(And that I’m going to be ok. I think. And that I’m going to try to go to bed. Again.)

[editor’s note: so I wrote this post at a little past 3am on a cold weekday night and have since decided that yes, I will publish it after all. So, um, please be nice?]

my ultimate double chocolate chip cookies

I had two batches of these cookies disappear within 24 hours of baking. Two. Batches. Even after I put a “Do Not Eat” sign on the second batch so I would have enough leftover to take some photos with. They’ll take 45 minutes from go to crumbs on your lap and are well worth the lack of effort.

you will need:

3/4C brown sugar
125g butter
1 egg
1/2 C buckwheat flour
3/4C plain flour
1/4tsp ground nutmeg
1/2tsp salt
1/2tsp ground black pepper
1/2C cocoa powder
1/2C chocolate chips

how to do it:

1. Chop the butter roughly then tip it into the bowl of a food processor with the brown sugar. Whizz until it is a creamy light brown, evenly coloured mess.

2. Add the egg to the bowl of the food processor and blend briefly so that it is mixed in.

3. Tip the flours, nutmeg, salt, pepper and cocoa into the food processor and whizz until it is a solid, dark brown dough.

4. Scoop tablespoon sized portions of dough out into your hand, add five or six chocolate chips to the middle and roll to form a smooth ball. Place the ball onto a paper lined baking tray and squish it down a little at the top. Repeat, spacing the balls at least 2cm apart, until all the dough is used up.

5. Bake the cookies in a 180C oven for 12minutes, switching the trays around at the half way mark. Eat with milk.


  • #1
    June 14th, 2012

    I love that you have used buckwheat flour and pepper in these cookies. Those two ingredients make these cookies stand apart for the run of the mill choc cookie recipe. I am going to have to give these a go!

    BTW I say bring on the after 3am posts. Unless you are actually sleeping of course, which you should be!!!

  • #2
    June 15th, 2012

    Good on you for having the guts to even change careers like that Shez. It does take one a lot of courage to do so! Things will turn out how they are meant to ๐Ÿ™‚ Love the concoction you’ve made for these great looking cookies!

  • #3
    June 16th, 2012

    Your cookies look chocolaty and rich, which is what I have been craving lately! The pictures are so beautiful as well.
    I write most of my posts past 3AM. It’s not up to me, that’s when the inspiration fairy decides to come…
    Quitting your job when it doesn’t make you happy anymore is what a person should do. I actually don’t believe in specializing in one field. I think people long to do many things in their life and that’s ok. Change is good. Best of luck to you!

  • #4
    June 16th, 2012

    I believe I am the same type of person you were. A plan-aholic. Planning ahead of time is only so I could feel secure in what’s coming next. It’s the only way I could sleep soundly at night. But I believe such a time where I need to pack and move will come. I admire your bravery! And these chocolate cookies. Do they ship well (hint) ๐Ÿ˜‰

  • #5
    June 16th, 2012

    Good for you… for quitting, for challenging yourself, for posting something you wrote at 3am and for making such gorgeous cookies!

  • #6
    June 17th, 2012

    Darling Shez! Congratulations on quitting law – ur my hero! And you’re living the dream girlie! And now you’re making me hungry with these cookies. Dammit! >< All the best x

  • #7
    June 18th, 2012

    That happens to me, too. I seem to get stuck on an ingredient, or a type of recipe, for a month or so, before the spell is broken. And the funny thing is, I never can predict exactly what is going to grab hold of me in this way. As for chocolate, good choice!

  • #8
    June 18th, 2012

    Congrats on taking the big leap of faith! Money can not buy happiness, sounds like you made a right choice. Loving the cookies as well!

  • #9
    June 19th, 2012

    omg, looks so delicious~
    hungry at this hour^^

  • #10
    June 19th, 2012

    Interesting use of buckwheat and ground pepper; who would’ve thought? All the very best with the unknown ahead Shez! Don’t lose sight of achieving your happiness.

  • #11
    June 20th, 2012

    Wow Shez I am so inspired by you taking such a giant step in life! Good luck for everything that is to come and enjoy the ride ๐Ÿ™‚
    Thos cookies are also very inspiring….they seriously look moreish!

  • #12
    June 20th, 2012

    They looks so incredibly moreish! Love buckwheat too so this is something I would definiteoly try.
    As for your job Shez, it’s taken me 3 uni degrees and a range of jobs to realise what I truly wanted to do. Panic et al in between. You’ll get there if you’re not there already! ๐Ÿ™‚

  • #13
    July 3rd, 2012

    So this is why I missed out on the news! Really need to catch up on my blog reading =p

    I dropped myself into the unknown-ahead 4 years ago. It was scary and calming at the same time. And here I am, a happier and less stressed person at the other end of it.

    If only I’d found some chocolate cookies during my sabbatical!

Shez